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LAST UPDATED AUGUST 14TH

My list of 50 things I want to accomplish this summer (09)

(I will be crossing them off as I go now. Yay!)

1. Buy a ukulele
2. Drive my bike more
3. Obtain my License
4. Buy a desk
5. Learn how to cook
6. Learn a new song on the piano
7. Read a couple books
8. Makes lot of money
9. Give up Tim Hortons food
10. Lose a couple pounds
11. Enjoy europe
12. Buy a cool, random trinket during my travels
13. Take a picture of me attempting to hold up the leaning tower of Pisa
(for example: Click this.)
14. Buy a cute bathing suit
15. Get my life back into an orderly routine
16. Clean out my room
17. Donate my unused clothes
18. Go on a roadtrip
19. Attempt to update my warbrobe
20. Buy more pairs of jeans
21. Spend as much time with Tyler as possible
22. Get drunk (hopefully more than once)
23. Go to Magic Mountain
24. Decide my future
25. Study my past Biology + Chemistry notes
26. Hang out with people that I haven't hung around with in a while
27. Fall in love with Montreal .. again
28. See as many bands as I can at Osheaga
29. Invent a cool, new Donut
30. Think of epic hangman topics
31. Take ridiculous pictures (golden retriever anyone?)
32. Buy a new camera
33. Hang out at a playground (preferably St.Andrews)
34. Buy a record player
35. Discover what my "drink" is
36. Activate my cell phone
37. Buy a McGill sweater
38. Write a script for "Colleen & Tabitha"
39. Hang out at Gaby's Cafe more, and seem as pretentious as possible
40. Discover more artists
41. Watch "Rushmore"
42. Fall asleep outside
43. Buy a new pair of shoes
44. Go yardsaleing
45. Go tubing
46. Have a bonfire
47. Watch really cheesy movies with Julia
48. See Transformers 2 in theatres
49. Have a blast from the past
50. Have a shit load of motherfucking fun


25/50.. HALF WAY!... but there's only a few days left. er?

I'm not lying when I say this!
If I had a ukulele, all of my problems would be solved!

yayayayayay.

yesterday was terrible, going into that english exam. I knew I guessed a good handful of the multiple choice, and my essays were teeeeeeeerrible!
not so great.

today: math exam.
since I was exempt, there was no stress, and I walked through that test like a stroll through the garden
(I'm ashamed to admit I had fun doing it).
if it doesn't improve my mark, who cares. all I know is that it won't make it go down.

insert smiley face here:
:)

"before you my life felt depressing and useless. Like not suicidal or anything but I really felt I had no point in doing anything. Now I feel so good all the time because I know that I have you by my side. I love you and nothing else matters."

it's worth procrastinating on your end of your essay to see something like that.
I'd say.

the weeks of delirous, oblivious happiness are over.

please, listen.
I don't feel superior. Don't say I am.
I miss you all.
Please ignore my grumpy mannerisms.
I don't want to ignore you guys anymore.
I'm scared.
Scared of being insulted.
Scared of being rejected.
I'm also scared of what's to come.
What if no one is left?
I don't feel independant anymore.
I feel more pressure.
I am in love,
though.
But goddamn, what happens when
that wears out?
Why can't I ever live in the present?
Why was he so 'happy for me!' when he found out about him?
What is so wrong with me?
Why are so many people making horrible assumptions?

three more days until I am officially a senior.
goddamn, I'm getting old.

isn't that awesome?

first, I must struggle through a couple english projects.