sometimes I'm tired of holding myself back. I never thought it would be a problem to over analyze things. I refrain from saying what I really want, because my head says that logically it could only lead to more problems, even if it would feel so so good to say it. this is why I never tell anyone off. this is why I never tell the people I have feelings for, that well, I have feelings for them. then eventually I feel like I miss opportunities and will never get another chance to say these things again. this makes me feel like a spineless pushover. one day I'll get the confidence to say what I feel, but right now, hiding from my heart seems like the only logical answer.