heheh.
last night was slightly needed. and slightly depressing.
I had a many good laughs, I heard the greatest impression of a certain guy in all of my advanced classes, and the greatest re-enactment of 'every live Rush DVD ever', and I haven't laughed so hard in the longest time and then realized that made me feel like I've been missing out on something big for a while.
Again, every time I hang out with him all I can think of is a lot of wasted potential due to my procrastination and lack of motivation. It seems like I'm destined to a long life a trying too hard and failing even harder in comparison to him. It bothers me a lot more than I let on, and a lot more than it should.

It is 7 pm on Saturday night, and I still have not started my english project, and erlack I know I won't work on it tonight. 3 pages out of 10 is just not good enough. I also found out that I have to work the night of my three hour long math exam and when I realized this I started to hyperventilate and overthink of how I would study and if they'd let me get off work early and etc etc etc I just feel as if I don't have enough preperation for this big of a test. I just have to realize that I overdramatize everything, and I make it seem as if this exam determines the outcome of the rest of my life.
Just remember. The black guy from House was a childhood delinquent, then ended up getting one of the most prestigious partnerships in the medical industry.
He is also a fictional character.
God fucking damn it.

also; how come no one told me that gained so much weight? this is a completely valid and called for statement, considering I went from chubby and managable to being parallel with moby dick.