I've been grinning and bearing it for a while now. Forcing yourself into a good mood doesn't feel healthy, but if it makes the people around me happy, then I guess it's worth it in the long run.

but really, I guess I'm fine!

I've just been trying to not think about the things that make me feel horrible. Things like not making a difference when I can, not doing what I want when I should, not talking to people that I have to, and just him, and how he refuses to even pretend to care now.

but really, I guess I'm fine!

Sorry for my scattered blog posts. I truly apologize, but for some reason I just can't think of anything to write about. This post even feels like a waste of my time (but I feel like I shouldn't abandon the blog that I wrote in so faithfully only weeks ago).