horoscopes are scarily accurate at this one site my friend goes to.
but, they're generic, which means that anyone can relate, right? right?!

"Don't focus your thoughts on the one that got away. It was not meant to be.
You have a great future in store for you, so start enjoying everything life has to offer."

aw fuckit.
of course I hung out with him today, how could I resist? he asked, brought along a dude who is also an old friend o' mine, it was going to be fun, fun, fun. I accepted the offer, squee'd, danced a little, jumped up and down, checked myself in the mirroir a dozen times, sat, waited.

and of course I fucked it up! of course I was awkward, of course I didn't contribute to conversation, of course! what is my problem? I used to, or am I still? in love with this guy, I don't even fucking know, am I? I don't want to be, fucking fuck I am a happy person, life is great, life is amazing, I have good friend and more than I'll ever need, WHY do things so trivial and small HAVE to come from towns two hours away AND make me think over things THAT I really don't want to thing about LIKE how I'll never be good enough TO impress the person I really want to impress AND that I am a quiet, boring young child?
I am a semi smart, reasonably lucky girl, I don't need to take that shit.

lets just say, everyone has their kryptonite.

this post, it's filled with so much teen angst. but you know what? I am a teen, I have angst.