this day has been a breath of fresh air in what I consider to be the longest and tedious week I've been through in a long time.
I missed the feeling of being so scared of just seeing someone. I missed thinking of possible things to say in conversation, if it ever became awkward. I miss the feeling of being genuinely afraid of failing or doing something embarassing, doing something so horrible that the person you're so into just looks at you with disgust. Forgetting about these fears and actually going through with it all and risking everything, it's sort of a thrill. I just missed him like crazy. I stumbled over my words, and I forced conversation, and I just appeared awkward, but I'd like to think that it all wasn't noticed. He hugged me though. Oh my god, I just realized that now. I forgot about it, how could I? I am like a little schoolgirl. I am giggling and happy as a clam, but also not as happy as I should be, because obviously there will be no matching blog post about me.

Sometimes that just doesn't matter, though.